Our quest is visible from the moment we arrive in this world, our first action seems to be crying out loud. We do not have enough cells in our brain to conceive a simple thought , our movements are restricted to feeble punches and kicks which cant even topple a pillow and most probably we haven even opened our eyes, still we need something,we search for something and because we are helpless in the present state it comes out as a loud shrill cry. We all know that there is something inherently disturbing in a child's cry.This cry is our expression of our quest in the most unblemished form. Later on when we grow up ,it spreads to all our senses and become less conspicuous.
It is in our genes to seek ; seeking is way primordial than thinking or loving, it is the most seminal of our actions. We seek for love, we search for answers.At its zenith we do not know what we are searching for but we believe that once we'll know it once we find it.
Why are we with someone? Isn't it because we have found something in this person. Can we define that something?....Sometimes 'Yes', like when it is purely carnal , when it is lust, here u know what you need, you know what to take and what not to.Everything is so well defined and what u seek is as short as the pinnacle of pleasure. Within hours, days or months you are done , you ditch, you leave. Something as superficial as lust can never hold two souls together. I believe it is when u have no clue as to what you have found in the other person , it is when you cannot delineate, demarcate or distinguish what you have found , you are ready to spend an eternity with this person.
The quest is as much internal as it is external. Once in love, you happen to find something you never knew existed like humour. All your life you had been as dull as a dishwasher and suddenly with this person you are 'The Chandler Bing'. With time you know, you ll discover much more in you. Hence atomically love is a quest, a quest of knowing ourselves through the other.
Remember we always used to learn things by differentiating. We drew tabular columns and wrote the differences side by side to grasp the concept deeper and better. So it is easier to learn one thing by comparing it with something entirely opposite to it.This is true in case of relationships too , in order to know ourselves we need to find someone totally different from us.That is why the extrovert falls for the introvert, the extraordinary for the mediocre, the strong for the weak.
Our search is not like Googles' , we do not always have a motive to search for nor do we have random algorithms running inside us to lead us somewhere. We are driven by our memories and impulses. I used to visit this bookshop to see a person who looked like a long lost friend.I used to go there everyday and stare at this person , this might sound absurd but the experience was inexplicably satiating and healing.
Our lives are built upon and defined by what we seek. When you think that there is nothing more in you or around you to discover, you are over as a person. Never let that happen.... always remember you belong to the kind that has probed down to the God particle .............
